☆ [008] ☆ Kurosaki Ichigo // Video // Agrabah

[sonofaghost]

[The red-head is back and in a terrible mood. He's low after having his hollow take over. He's run away from Agrabah and is hiding in that familiar place where he likes to train. He looks miserable, sleep-deprived and sick.]

T-To everyone listening and to those that I hurt, I'm really sorry. I couldn't control myself, it just- I don't know what happened.

[He looks away from the feed and just buries his head in his hands.]

I thought I was stronger than this. I thought I could control it better but this just proves I'm not. Nel, don't you try finding me. In fact, I really need to talk to you about something.

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[berryphile]

Wha-?

Ichigo, where are you?

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[sonofaghost]

I'm safe. That's all that matters.

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[berryphile]

No, you need to tell me where you are.

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[sonofaghost]

Nel, back off. I'm not going back to Agrabah.

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[berryphile]

But...

[Don't make her cry Ichigo.]

Ichigo it wasn't your fault.

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[filchedfruit]

It wasn't your fault. The portal changed you.

It turned me into a monster too.

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[sonofaghost]

It's not that simple.

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[filchedfruit]

[ There's a lot that he doesn't understand.]

How so?

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[sonofaghost]

That thing is me. It lives inside of me, it's a part of me so I'm as responsible as he is.

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[filchedfruit]

oh

It still took the portal to bring it out.

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[aka_catherine]

[This was weird... it felt like the two had talked before but Washu couldn't quite recall it now that she was back to nor-AH!]

You only threatened me, so don't worry about it~

[She replied lifting her index finger beside her cheek and sounding way too cheerful considering the subject matter]

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[sonofaghost]

[He felt bad.]

I'm really sorry, it could have been worse and I'm glad it's not.

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[aka_catherine]

You can't let a little thing like this get you down~

[Then sounding more serious]

I have a feeling we could be facing something much worse.

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[sonofaghost]

Is that suppose to make me feel better?

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[aka_catherine]

You mean it doesn't?

[She replied in jest]

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[mynameisallen]

[Allen can understand the need to keep something at bay. So have the young boy here answer.]

I wouldn't feel too bad about it. [Turning his head slightly he let out a light chuckle, it seemed ironic that he would say that.] Well, at least after a small while. After all if you let it get to you, then your friends are the ones that will ultimately get upset.

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[sonofaghost]

Them getting upset over saving their lives isn't exactly a bargain I need too much thinking to take.

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[mynameisallen]

Are they able to protect themselves?

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[sonofaghost]

Not from me when I turn into that.

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[mynameisallen]

[Allen feels like this when it's about Neah, it's why he always pushes them away when he fears losing control.]

I can understand what it's like to be afraid of what can happen.

[intogold]

Really, your a much more polite young man right now, deary.

[He tilts his head to the side slightly, thoughtful.] But sometimes strength has nothing to do it. Circumstance is what it is. The only thing to do is move forward with it.

[A pause and he adds, curiously.] Though tell me, you sound less surprised about what happened than most. This thing you were isn't just a creation of this place then, is it?

[sonofaghost]

You're right. That thing wasn't just a monster, it was me. A part of me.

[intogold]

So I see. [A slow smile here.] And you keep it contained, locked tight away?

I don't mean to pry, but in a way... I do understand what it's like, to have something dark as a part of oneself.

[sonofaghost]

[He looked at the feed.]

I'm trying to keep it locked up but... it's hard. A lot harder than I thought.

[intogold]

Well, that does tend to be the way of it, doesn't it? After all, what's part of you is part of you whether or not you want to acknowledge it. It's you fighting yourself, which is always difficult. [He tilts his head to the side thoughtfully.]

Of course, there are somewhat more expeditious ways to suppress that sort of thing...