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[drivememercury]

[Ami is in her usual blue and white swimsuit, flip-flops, and pink zip-up hoodie. The beach wasn't her usual location of choice when she felt the urge for a relaxing swim.

But something was drawing her here, today.]

I think...[The wind whips her short blue hair across her face, and she ducks away from the camera for a moment to push her hair out of her face.]

...it seems that Michiru-san has gone to join Haruka-san. [Whatever that means. She can't be sure of it, herself.

She sighs softly. She was going to have to look outside her usual circle of friends to find someone to swim with, wasn't she?]

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【 VIDEO 】

[decaying]

If it was that simple to ignore you, I would. Gladly.

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[drivememercury]

[Ami continues to maintain a calm tone.] I fail to see what is so difficult about it.

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[decaying]

That's right. I forget you don't remember me.

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[drivememercury]

....

[It's been a few months now, Kanda.]

I remember enough from what experience I do have now, Kanda-san. I'm sorry, but that will just have to be good enough.

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[decaying]

[Yeah. It's been months. You still have the same fact though. You still piss him off. Not much has changed. But now he feels uncomfortable.]

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[drivememercury]

[Ami is keenly aware of the discomfort, and now she's curious. What about her made him so contrary?

No way she approached it, he never seemed to give her a straight answer.]

【 VIDEO 】

[decaying]

[He's not even sure himself. It doesn't matter.]

Just do whatever the hell you like then.

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[drivememercury]

[Ami looks back out to the ocean, and sighs.] I don't have the power to do that. [There's a tinge to her voice that sounded foreign to her--but maybe you'd recognize it, Kanda. It's a tinge of bitterness.]

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[decaying]

[Yes he does. You're so young and you have all those teenage problems Kanda doesn't know about.]

What do want. Why do you say you can't get it.

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[drivememercury]

[Ami looks back to the feed, her soft blue eyes hard as she steels herself for the sake of her admittance.] I want to remember.

[Her voice catches in her throat as she strains to continue. Her voice maintains its usual politeness, but her words are barbed.] You think I frustrate you? Think of how I frustrate myself, Kanda-san. Someone whose entire self-worth is invested in her mind's capability--how do you think it must feel to have the one thing worth anything to you failing you just utterly?

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[decaying]

It's not your fault, I never said it was.

[Damn, Ami. You're sort of scaring him now. Don't get angry, he doesn't know how to handle you angry.]

And what the hell are you talking about, 'self worth invested in her mind'? What's that supposed to mean.

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[drivememercury]

Without my mind, I am nothing. [Ami states it like it's as plain as day.] My friends rely on me for my ability to retain information. If I can't even remember things that happened to me, what does that mean for the friends who count on me?

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[decaying]

If that's what your friends see you as, a brain on legs, they don't sound like they're very good friends.

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[drivememercury]

[There's a sharp edge to her voice.] That is not what I said.

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[decaying]

That's exactly what you said. I thought this was about lost memories, you're bringing something else up.

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[drivememercury]

[Are you intentionally being dense, Kanda?]

You don't seem to be following my train of thought.

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[decaying]

[He's simple minded, Ami.]

Why do I get the feeling you're going to correct me.

【 VIDEO 】

[drivememercury]

[Sigh. She can't resist the urge to.]

If you consider your brain an asset, no different than the ability to use a weapon or cast magic...when it fails to perform the most basic function. Say, a swordsman is unable to lift chopsticks...

...do you see the parallel?

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[decaying]

I get it. Ami, you shouldn't feel bad about it. [He sighs.]

I'll help you.

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[drivememercury]

[Ami has to resist the urge to turn up her nose at the offer. But still, she manages to refuse.]

You needn't trouble yourself. I've already been enough of a burden. [Clearly.]

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[decaying]

What the hell?

[Did you just refuse help? You're confusing the hell out of this exorcist.]

You don't want my help?

[Just so you know, Ami, he doesn't normally offer it so this is a big thing for him.]

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[drivememercury]

[Ami seems subdued by the whole thing. Detached.]

It's not very helpful if it's sprinkled with insults and used against you in the long run.

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[decaying]

That's because I haven't been helping you.

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[drivememercury]

[Oh? You could've fooled her.]

I won't ask what it was you were doing, then.

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[decaying]

[He'll stop and think about that.]

I was worried.