08 ★ Video + Text

[mynameisallen]

[The moment Allen woke up, he hadn't a clue where he was or ever how to managed to get to where he was, even though he knew what he had done as that creature. Putting a hand to his face, he tried to hold back the tears that were thretening to fall down, but to no avail as he felt them trickle down. Trying to reach over for a tissue, he instead knocks over the device, switching it on as Allen rolled his head towards the side, leaning over the edge in order to get the thing.

Allen's hair that was once white was now red, thanks to Kanda making a deal with a certain someone, it seems that it hasn't gone yet.]

Ah, I must have knocked it over.

[Faking a smile, he picked it up, the covers doing a good job at covering from the waist down, but his torso clearly showed the scars from previous battles. One which he caused himself and the other...well people would reconiuse the one as the place Allen had bleeding when he arrived. putting his free hand behind his head he laughed slightly.]

I'm sorry about any problems I caused. I guess certain situations in my life got to me big time and well... [He looked to the side slightly.] You all know what happened afterwards.

[He glanced down slightly before he switches off the feed to get changed and to think about a lot of things. After a couple of hours another message was posted but instead of it being video or voice, it was text.]

I need some time to think about the things I've done and what I'm going to do next. I really am sorry to everyone that I hurt while I was a heartless and I feel really bad that it happened. So I decided that until I find my resolve once more, I can't be close to anyone. I fear that I might hurt someone else, even though I'm no longer a heartless myself.

So, I ask you not to find me, please.

[Private to Kanda]
Kanda, please take care of Lenalee and please whatever happens, don't look for me. It's better to keep everyone safe than to risk any more pain.

[Private to Lenalee]

Lenalee, please take care. I promise that someday I will return and we can all live together again. So, for now, please don't cry, afterall I think your face is much more beautiful when you smile, rather than when you cry.

Thank you and goodbye.

Comments

【 VIDEO 】

[decaying]

[Allen. Kanda is pissed. You know, he was on his way back into the bedroom he locked you in and did not expect an empty room. Now that you're human again you run away? Oh hell no.]

Idiot, what the hell do you think you're doing?! Get back here, I'm not taking any of your crap!

【 VOICE 】

[mynameisallen]

[Allen had managed to carry what little he had to the Gummi station, as he kept his device on voice for the meantime. Hopefully nothing can give him away.]

What does it look like. I'm going to get stronger and not let what happened happen again.

【 VOICE 】

[decaying]

There you go again blaming yourself for something you had no control over. This wasn't your fault!

【 VIDEO 】

[albinoidiot]

What happened to your hair? We're not matching anymore.

【 VOICE 】

[mynameisallen]

One of my friends thought it would be a good idea to change a heartless colour so I would stand out. It seems that the effect went to my hair.

Re: 【 VOICE 】

[albinoidiot]

Well you can wear red pretty good. Maybe I should get my hair did too. [He's laughing at you.]

【 VIDEO 】

[alwaysmindful]

Although I don't know your situation, that is a very mature decision.

【 VOICE 】

[mynameisallen]

Thank you. I was hoping that it was.

【 VOICE 】

[alwaysmindful]

But why are you running? What are you running from?

【 VIDEO 】

[bloodandfeathers]

Welcome back. You seem... better.

【 VOICE】

[mynameisallen]

Yeah, this is better than being a heartless.

【 VOICE】

[bloodandfeathers]

How was your experience? Did you fair well?

[Video]

[geniustheveil]

I'm glad you're feeling better.

[She doesn't urge him to go back to his friends, not because she'd be against that, but because she isn't sure she can face her friends, and it'd be hypocritical to insist that he should.]

[Voice]

[mynameisallen]

Thanks. I really do apologise for hurting you when it first happened. So, sorry.

[Voice]

[geniustheveil]

Don't worry; I don't hold any ill-will towards you. It was the fault of the heartless.

[Video]

[sanguineheels]

.....Allen. You...

[this is just like when he left the order. Except, at least then she'd been able to see him before he disappeared.]

Why won't you let us help you...

[The private message arrives as she's responding, so her attention flickers, eyes darting across as she reads the words in disbelief. Before she can stop them, tears brim over and spill from her eyes. She lifts the back of her sleeve to rub them away before cutting off the message.]

You idiot.

[Voice]

[mynameisallen]

I'm sorry, Lenalee. I... just don't want anyone else to get hurt. Not until I get stronger and I'm able to protect everyone without the risk of them getting hurt.

[sanguineheels]

[She sniffs, a pretty undignified noise that matches the pained expression on her face.]

Allen... It doesn't work like that! We're friends! We work together! You're supposed to trust us...Why do you always run away?!

[Video]

[mountain_sage]

...You became a Heartless? How did you return to your true form?

[Voice]

[mynameisallen]

I did, though... I don't know how I managed to change back. I do remember everything I did though.

[Voice]

[mountain_sage]

Hmm...there was someone talking about it...was he responsible? Do you think he would know something?

[Referring to the Undertaker.]

[intogold]

Oh my... [A bit of a smirk accompanies the words. Yeah, Rumplestiltskin is sort of ignoring anything more serious than the part of this that is his doing.] Well, your friend was right, red is a good color on you.

Though it seems to me, deary, that there were problems abounding recently.

[mynameisallen]

[He remembered it was you who did something, though until now he didn't know it was the whole changing him red thing.]

You mean with the heartless?

Video

[filchedfruit]

[ Joluk is still an emotional wreck and he was lucky enough that the Land of Dragons native saved him. He feels it must be so much worse for Allen.]

It's not your fault. That situation was too much for anyone. Those heartless really screwed with you.

[ Joluk doesn't come from a culture that values literacy, but he makes the effort to read the text.]

What hurt them was that you were gone.

Voice

[mynameisallen]

I know and that's why I'm going t travel alone, to really get my head together.

[He knew that him leaving might cause problems, especially for Lenalee, but he knew that in the end it will be much better for them.]

It might hurt them for now, but I hope they understand someday why I had to do this.