❀ Eighth Illusion ❀ Kanda Yu : Video / Twilight Town

[decaying]

[Kanda hadn't gone to work in a few days, he really hadn't left his bedroom either. Because the guy was so quiet, it was hard to notice he was still there but sometime during the afternoon, Kanda came out, hair loose, shirtless, and with a blue duck in tow. He went straight for the fridge, the duckling looking over his leg at all the things inside.]

You want something? I guess I need to feed you at some point, just choose something.

[At his master's command, it crept towards the fridge raided the vegetables and then dragged out the gallon of juice. Kanda frowned.]

Hey, not the whole damned thing! You're going to drink that from a bowl like a normal-

[But the duck didn't seem to listen. There went the gallon of juice and Kanda just threw his hands up and started rummaging through the cupboards.]

Fine. Do whatever you want. Just don't tell Allen about this. [He found what he was looking for, a bottle of rum he took from Port Royal.] I'm not in the mood for anything today.

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[sanguineheels]

[She stumbles at first, not expecting to be dragged anywhere.]

K-kanda! What's wrong? [she frowns, glancing over her shoulder back where Kanda's eyes had been.]

What is it you're seeing?

[decaying]

[He makes sure to roll his too-fat pet along with them. By the way the thing keeps flailing, Kanda has probably done this before.]

I can see her. Sometimes when I walk out of a room, she... goes away. [He sounded like such an idiot, didn't he. Talking about ghosts and things only he could see. Like a crazy person.]

[sanguineheels]

Her? Her who? [She doesn't quite understand, but she lets herself get lead away from whatever it is that Kanda's seeing.

Even if it's strange, she's not about to judge Kanda, considering the things that he's been through.]

Kanda, slow down.

[decaying]

The second exorcist experiment didn't revolve necessarily on just trying to make more exorcists, it was actually trying to keep exorcists from going 'out of commision'. I was made with someone... [And he stopped. He didn't know how to explain it.]

I died once, Lenalee. I saw my death. I know I died but I haven't. I just- it's a past life. I used to be someone else, another exorcist. The order couldn't afford to be losing them so they figured if they took what made them what they were and put it into something else, they would be able to have an exorcist again. Do you understand?

[sanguineheels]

[It's a lot of information to take in, but she follows -- for the most part. At the question, she nods.]

I understand, Kanda. [She's kind of horrified that the order would do something like that to the exorcists that work for them, but well.... considering everything it's not all that farfetched.]

[decaying]

When I woke up from that sleep, the memories started coming and I was having a really hard time trying to figure out what was real. I couldn't sleep without reliving memories. Every night for that first year of my life I kept reliving my death. I almost went insane.

Last week made things worse. I can... I can see her.

[sanguineheels]

[She frowns.]

You mean even though things have been set right, it's effected your nightmares.... [That's... not good.]

Who is it? ... That you see.

[decaying]

[They were in the living room now and when Lenalee asked, he didn't know how to answer that. It was awkward, really awkward.]

She was my lover. Not mine but, in those memories she was my lover.

[sanguineheels]

[Suddenly, pieces are starting to fall into place.]

Perhaps it's because a part of you still longs for her, that you're seeing her everywhere?

[decaying]

Yeah, the part of me that belonged to someone else. She's from another life. Literally. I think I would prefer a girl I actually remember meeting myself than some ghost from the past.

[But he does love her. Because he used to love her, so he can't change that.]

[sanguineheels]

Mm... [It must be hard for Kanda, in her opinion.]

I'm certain it will work out, Kanda. [She sets a hand on his arm lightly, an attempt at comfort.]

[decaying]

What's going to work out?

[sanguineheels]

[Hm. Maybe she picked the wrong words.]

I mean... I don't think you'll always be haunted by your past life.

[decaying]

I guess not.

[sanguineheels]

[She reaches out to squeeze his hand. She didn't really have the right words to help here, unfortunately.]

I'm sorry Kanda. I wish there was something else I could do.

[decaying]

There is. [And he lifted his gaze to look at her.]

[sanguineheels]

Ah? [She looks a little surprised.]

What is it?

[decaying]

Don't tell Allen. [He figures it's okay talking about this crap with a girl but... not Allen. There's like- just no. Allen knows too much.]

[sanguineheels]

[she blinks.]

Allen? [Why would she...]

Don't worry Kanda. This is a conversation between you and me.

[decaying]

[He just nodded before turning around and taking a seat on the couch. Crap. He left his bottle in the kitchen.]

[sanguineheels]

[No drinking, Kanda.]

You should try to relax tonight. Maybe even stay home tomorrow. [AND REST]

[decaying]

I was planning on it. I just need to get some sleep... [But that's not going to happen.]

[sanguineheels]

[she sits down on the couch with him, reaching behind her to pull the throw off of the back of it. With a quick flick of her wrist she unfolds the blanket and settles it over him.]

Take a nap for now. [she'll shuffle you to bed later.]

[decaying]

[He turns his attention to her and gives the throw she put on him a puzzled look. She was right, he needed a good long rest, but it was hard. He really didn't want to sleep.]

Don't leave yet.

[He muttered, grabbing her by the arm and pulling her over to him. He normally didn't like company but now that she at least knew his predicament, he felt a little more reassured. She would understand. Just a little bit.]

[sanguineheels]

[She's only slightly startled by the sudden demand, but not about to deny the request. She scoots closer, settling a reassuring hand on the one of his on her arm.]

I'll stay.